Friday I had to go for a procedure called an endoscopy.  

This is where, under sedation, a small camera is inserted into your throat and maneuvered down to your stomach.

I have had this procedure done many times, and I'm not afraid of it.  It's not particularly uncomfortable, and I respond to anesthesia very well.

But you can see where my mind was as I was drawing.

ps.  All is well in my innards.

There are some days when I'm very happy with the drawing and the process.   If I'm looking for some grand meaning in this whole thing, perhaps it would be better to just sit back and enjoy.

When I sat down this morning, I let myself fill up with positive feelings.  I looked forward to doing the drawing.  

But something happened. 

 Did I jinx myself?  I think it just happens sometimes that the drawing isn't so good, no matter what mood I'm in or whatever else could affect it.  There's some wild element that I can't control, and when the picture turns out right, it's very exciting.

But other times, not so much.

I drew it, I took a picture of, and then I sat down to eat breakfast and completely forgot to post it!

Wha?

I think I am stuck in a rut with these drawings.  Altho I like doing them, I seem to be doing the same thing over and over.  Basically it seems like surface design.  First I draw the lines to make the "surfaces," and then I decorate them.  I want to find another way to approach this, but I don't want to over think it too much.

Well, we shall see what happens.

I'm liking this drawing.  Even though it is fairly simple in its decoration, the composition is very pleasing to me.

Late last night I made the decision NOT to do a drawing this weekend.  I was tired and I knew it would be rushed and not accomplish anything.  So I skipped it.  

I forgot to post this yesterday!  Where was my head?

It was one of those moving-real-slow mornings, until the toilet overflowed just as we were leaving. And somehow the posting of the picture got forgotten.

Sorry about that.

I just like this picture so much.  I was thinking about curvy shapes, similar to paisley, and everything that came out of my pen was like magic.  

And so now I have the weekend in which to do my longer drawing session.  It is good to go into it with such positive feelings.

Very satisfying work this morning.  

I am really happy with this composition. 

 I think my new watchword is "movement."  

I wanted to make something pretty today.  So I think my attitude was very positive.  

And having a drawing to look at after deciding on a good attitude, well, that's just frosting.  

It's gonna be a good day.

An easy flowing drawing for today.  I had a much better night, and awoke feeling very optimistic.  

I'm surprised that the points on some of my brand new markers are starting to get a bit mushy.  I've been using the .3 mm for a while now.  I guess I need to change them out more often.

I had a bad night last night.  And yet, I had a good time drawing this.  But it's not my favorite drawing of all time.

I think that I'm at a place where it's hard for me to tell what effect these drawings are having on me on a day to day basis.  I know that when I started, I felt like I was doing something.  Now, sometimes, it feels like a chore.  And I know if I were to stop, I would miss it.  So I will keep going.  And I will look for the joy while I'm drawing.

This is the drawing that I took 30 minutes on last night.  I think I had some good ideas, and it was nice to take the extra time.  I could feel the difference.  But I was a bit daunted when I sat down.  How was I going to fill 30 minutes with drawing?  Once I started, tho, it wasn't too bad.

I was dreaming about birds this morning.  I think it came out in this drawing. 

I repeated that wavy line with the parallel lines within it from yesterday's drawing.  I find drawing that very satisfying.

Yesterday was such a dead day at work.  It was probably 3:00 before I did any store-related work at all, I was so bored. And I think my feeling seeped into this drawing a little.  Notice how it all goes nowhere, there's no focus.  

But I enjoyed making the picture, anyway.

Another pleasing drawing and session today.  I am seeing quilt ideas regularly.  Maybe sometime I will have time to follow up on some of these ideas.

I've been using a finer point lately, .03 mm.  I was using an .08 mm for a while there, but I like different things sometimes.

I really like this drawing today.

I sort of approached it in a bit of a panic because I had no good ideas in my head, or so I thought.

But those good ideas were in there somewhere.

I started this project to help me stay in touch with my creative self, which it is doing.  And because I thought it would boost my self esteem, and it really does that on those days when I'm satisfied with the drawing.